Whereas last summer I was chilling by the lake many weekends, this year, for various reasons, we have not been able to make the weekly trip as often as we would like. This has definitely contributed to my lack of feeling rested. Work has been quite busy and this new found blogging hobby is consuming all of my other time, with some exceptions. Excuse me while I point out my #1 priority.
I hadn’t seen him since Sunday and felt a strong need to whip over and see him for his bath and bedtime routine last night. Poor little guy has been sick this week with roseola but has started feeling better.
So I was feeling a bit sorry for myself, trying to juggle so many balls in the air, but also maybe a little tired last night. I knew today would be a killer day, as I was facing a deadline for work and waiting on some information before I could complete a bunch of work that likely would not be smooth sailing. I wanted to draft a post last night, knowing that my work may take me into the evening on Friday with Murphy’s assistance. But, I was so tired and my brain was fried, that I just couldn’t face some of the topics that were floating around in my head but not grabbing me outright and compelling me to write. Is this my first case of writer’s block? Oh my!
Anyways, at the beginning of the week I was caught up on blog reading, but knew I was fast falling behind again. This didn’t please me, so I decided to turn my attention towards this, because my post for today obviously wasn’t going to write itself!
The first blog that came up on my reader was the one I was meant to read right at that moment. In my busyness, I have fallen away from something I strove to practice since last summer. Frequent readers may remember that I have referenced the concepts of “The Power of Now” a number of times. This time last year, I was enjoying reading and applying it to my everyday life. Today, I’ve got the book still perched on my bathtub ledge, I think about it often, but am I applying it?
In his post, John brought me back to the splendor of applying the concepts of living in the moment. When I take sudden road trips, thankfully not too far, to go see my little monkey butt, I feel like I am getting there.
But that is not enough.
Living too much in past or in the future is not good. And as much as I strive to not do this, I still am.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t lament about the good old days. I do feel the best is yet to come… or… ahem… is now.
To be honest, unless I’m recounting a funny story, memories can be still a bit painful – missing my Aunt, my Mum, my dog. But I don’t want to go there.
I prefer to live in the moment but yet I do live a bit in the future. Life is not perfect, because I cannot do exactly everything I want to do. That is why I sometimes live in the future. What if I get to the future and it is not as I expected?
There’s a high probability this could happen. Therefore I am wrong to put all my eggs in that basket, all my money on Monkey Butt for the win, all my desires on hold today because I must sacrifice for a better tomorrow?
Sometimes, I feel I’m continuously playing catchup, in a world that won’t stop.
I am swimming across the English channel or Lake Ontario. It’s choppy and not fun, but I’m determined to get there.
I know I don’t want to sacrifice my goals for some fleeting pleasures, and yet must I sacrifice my present joy for something that may not materialize exactly as I imagine?
The answer is no.
I can have it all.
I can experience joy today, as much as I want and not turn my back on future goals.
I can execute on my plans, but not let it seem like drudgery.
I can find balance, in a world of demands and opportunities.
As long as I allow myself to take those opportunities and even seek them out. I deserve them.
I deserve to achieve my goals as well, so I keep my eyes on the prize.
I live each moment and say, “How am I feeling now?”
Is this bringing me pure joy? Keep doing it.
Is this in line with where I want to go? Keep reaching for it.
Is this too much of one and not enough of the other? Stop. Rebalance. Then get back on that horse called Monkey Butt, as soon as I am ready.P.S. I really recommend you read John’s post, Be observant, it will change your attitude, if you haven’t already. BTW, after reading it, I shut down the laptop and went to bed. I managed to get my work completed by 5 p.m. today (that never happens!) And now, I have the pleasure of writing this post, refreshed, relaxed and ready to start the weekend. How’s that for living in the moment?
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